A Question in My Mind.....

last few days i was just wondering about our life. and I ended up with few question in my mind.
may be just because what happened in my past. although it was not tragic. But it still hurt me some or the other way. In my life I always wanted a guy who can understand me well, ofcourse he should love me but more than that understand me...
Many guys rather would say prince came into my life. except one no other had known me so well. He even understood my silence. What I wanted to say was always on his mind. Today while writing this post I am just so emotional that even I can cry. But would not do so cause my life is not for crying on everything around me. Yeah! I have that regret that I don't have that prince in my life anymore...I don't have that alladin in my life, who use to hear those silent word when i really don't wanted to speak. i remember whenever i was silent and he wanted me to speak up....I never did so and he always got irritated. I just kept wondering why he wanted me to Speak when he knows exactly what i wanted to say. but gradually i understood that actually he wanted to just listen them through me. it really important sometimes to speak up cause there are few people sitting next to you to just listen to you. But always loved his mindreading.
Dear hubby, I just wonder why don't you get those silent of mine. why you never understood that my miscall says that i am missing you eagerly and wanted to talk. I don't get it when i am angry at you, yelling on you.....why don't you get that i don't like it you talking to that girl again and again all over again. I don't know how you each and every time misunderstand me never understand what i wanted to say, even if i say it clearly. Every time your thoughts make me feel that you don't know me not a single thing about me except my name. Whatever you said to me, or say about me I just feel my classmates know me better than you. if you can't understand me how can we live together. cause I don't find a difference in getting married to a stranger and you. You don't know me neither that person will. then what purpose of this love marriage. and this thought is not all of a sudden. earlier i thought you are an innocent guy so you need time to understand thing but every time the same things happening. I am really upset today. ended up with question that why I am calling you my hubby when you can't understand me well. when I always needed a person who can understand me well??
why?? why??